I want to be a writer.

This is something I've decided to dedicate myself to. Unfortunately, that's all I've got. I actually have writer's block for my life. This blog's purpose is now going to chronicle how I shake that block. There are a lot of distractions in my life right now: video games, the Navy, college, life as a whole serves as a distraction, my inability to write coherently.

I need to find a way to overcome these things and burst onto the writing scene.

Originally, I started this blog to write about Video Games and Video Game Journalism. One of the reasons for this was to give me a foundation for a "normal" career to break into. Since I want to be a journalist and most journalism is bogged down by stupidity I thought Video Game Journalism would be a great place to go because it's fairly new. Plus, being a journalist seems like a great place to start my career as a writer.

There are no real pioneers or leaders in video game journalism. Most of the jobs revolve around reviewing games after being bought out by the publisher to give it a good review. The little video game journalism that is out there doesn't really follow a set trend and video game journalism, more than most other forms of journalism, has been tainted by the blogosphere and video-sharing sites like YouTube.

That brings me to another point.

Journalism is a joke.

I wanted to be a journalist because I thought it'd be a unique and fun way for me to find a career that wouldn't keep me behind a desk or wasting away in Middle America.  Turns out all the training I've had for journalism and all the experience I've gotten while in the Navy amounts to just about... nothing.

All you need is a 2-year-old with a videocamera or an idiot with internet access to be a journalist. Blogs ruin journalism in my opinion, but if you look hard enough you can still find those hard-working journalists putting their skills to work. The problem with that is, who cares?

Who cares that Roger Ebert has an amazingly well-written blog about movies, politics and his personal life? Who cares that former Electronics Gaming Monthly Editor-in-Chief Dan Hsu has a great blog about gaming journalism?

No one. Because everything on the Blogosphere is the same. Whether you want well-written rants about indie movies or the guy that saw Obama in the shopping mall and played a fart joke on him, you can find it out there and, much like Celebrity Gossip Columns, it'll all keep you entertained but it won't really change your life.

I'm not that kind of guy. I want to change lives. I want to make a difference. I don't want to be an unknown. I don't want to change the world, I just want to impact it.

So, with all of this ranting about how bad the blogosphere is, why am I blogging?  This isn't for you. This isn't for the Internet. This is for me.

I need a way to write because the only way to become a better writer is to keep writing. So I will use this blog to post all of my thoughts, however useless they might be. Some posts might not make much sense or ramble on, like this one, but hopefully in the end it will come together and help me find my way as a writer.