Want to know something else? When I'm not writing... When I'm thinking about my writing... When I stare at that computer for an hour... You know what I feel more than anything? Lonliness.

Even now I wonder if that is pathetic... Silly even. I mean, I have been alone for a long time. I used to consider God as my partner in crime, but it has been a while. I've never met friends with the same mindset as I have. I look for what I consider the right kind of relationship in the wrong kind of places.

My writing is all I have when it comes to expressing myself, and I can't even do that well.